Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Rough couple of Days
Well, no miracle yet, but we are still praying. The last two days have been very rough. Kenz has been very irritable along with short and snappy most of the day. She has also had two emotional meltdowns, one each day. Both were over food. Crazy, huh? She gets her mind set on something and if it does not happen just the way she thinks it should she looses it emotionally. It is almost like when a two year old does not get want they want and they throw a temper tantrum. The difference is that she is 13! Funny thing is she hardly ever had them when she was two. At least I don't remember them that well or that they were ever that bad. Maybe it is because she is 13 and not 2! It is so hard to know what to do and how to handle them. Mostly, I shut down, stop talking, leave her alone and wait until she is calm again to address the situation. I have also learned to stick to what I say and not waver. It is also imperative that I stay calm and firm. All I can tell you is that after all day of being abused verbally and trying to rely on God's strength, is that I am exhausted. It is so draining. I know that God never gives you more than you can handle, but some days it does not feel that way. I have to rely on what is truth not my feelings. He is there for me and His strength never runs out. Thank goodness.