Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Rough couple of Days

Well, no miracle yet, but we are still praying. The last two days have been very rough. Kenz has been very irritable along with short and snappy most of the day. She has also had two emotional meltdowns, one each day. Both were over food. Crazy, huh? She gets her mind set on something and if it does not happen just the way she thinks it should she looses it emotionally. It is almost like when a two year old does not get want they want and they throw a temper tantrum. The difference is that she is 13! Funny thing is she hardly ever had them when she was two. At least I don't remember them that well or that they were ever that bad. Maybe it is because she is 13 and not 2! It is so hard to know what to do and how to handle them. Mostly, I shut down, stop talking, leave her alone and wait until she is calm again to address the situation. I have also learned to stick to what I say and not waver. It is also imperative that I stay calm and firm. All I can tell you is that after all day of being abused verbally and trying to rely on God's strength, is that I am exhausted. It is so draining. I know that God never gives you more than you can handle, but some days it does not feel that way. I have to rely on what is truth not my feelings. He is there for me and His strength never runs out. Thank goodness.

1 comment:

  1. I feel that God does give us more than we can handle. If we could handle this on our own, we wouldn't need Him or others to lean on! Sometimes at the darkest times with our bp kids, we feel he isn't there at all, and then we rage, but he meets us still somehow, when we are spent with raging. The quiet voice, in the silence, tells us He is still good.

    Amy, please put me on your email list for your blogs. Go to the customize page and go to email settings, and enter my email so I don't ever miss one: meganbstack@yahoo.com. I want to keep up with you daily. Maybe one day we can meet! I liked Texas a lot.